I believe that rainy days are perfect opportunities to take the time to get rid of everything we do not need and want so that we have time, space, and energy in our lives for all the things we do.
I moved four times in the last year. With every move, the biggest stressor was always stuff. It has been challenging for me to find the balance between not having what I need and having too much. The gravity of this dilemma is the heaviest when you have to move. I am settled in, but I am still struggling with too much. I work my full-time job during the week and plan on cleaning and organizing on the weekends.
Throughout the week I receive lots of moments of inspiration and ideas that require creative energy, but I am beginning to see that having too much is zapping my time and energy that could be used towards my creative ideas and goals.
Why waste my time and energy on stuff that will not matter years from now and will only hold me back from achieving my goals?
I think it goes back to the fact that I need to learn to let go. I am such a sentimental soul who values memories and things remind me of magical moments of the past. This does not have to be a weakness and it is a valuable skill, but I think it is time for me to exercise it in a different way.
I hope to live a beautiful, full, and colorful life and I cannot possibly carry everything that will remind me of these moments and times. If I try to collect souvenirs from everything I will not be able to travel very far because souvenirs and collections become heavy and “to travel far, one must carry less.”
This will be a challenge for me with my sentimental nature, but I am tired of waiting around to achieve my goals I want to make them happen and I think the end of this year is a perfect time to start.
Here are some of my goals for the new year:
- Launch and follow through with my “Happiness Project” throughout the year.
- Build up my Swim team and get us at competitive swim meets under USA Swimming.
- Live a healthy and active lifestyle.
- Go back to school.
- Swim and workout consistently.
- Train for a Triathlon.
Another facet of letting go is forgiveness. I am discovering that it is more difficult to forgive when we are disappointed or hurt. That is the time when we need to forgive the most. Hanging on to disappointments, pain, and past hurts only keep us in a place of being hurt. When we are hurt it is hard to learn, grow, and thrive.
I have been home for 4 years and my road to healing has been a journey full of twists and turns. I just need to remember and reflect on all the progress I have made.
My challenges to myself are Forgiveness and Letting Go…