Time Heals

“Time Heals” was the answer I got when I told my 1st true love I still loved them after the break up.

I was hurting at the time.  Dazed, confused, and missing my best friend.

The worst part was that the break up was my decision.

I had a constant fear that I was never good enough.  This person was with me because they felt sorry for me.  And any day I would just mess up…

Shattered remnants from my abusive past.

A past where I was told that everything was my fault and I couldn’t do anything right.

A past where I was un-love-able and useless in the eyes of a drunken loser who just couldn’t let me go.

I was young, naive, in my early twenties (I had practically been a teenager when we met) and I believed his force-fed lies for longer than I would like to admit.

The lies leaked into my life after him and replayed tapes of negative, self-defeating, and self-sabotaging messages.

Over 2 years of constant heartbreak and then 2 years later the biggest heartbreak in my life (caused by my own fears and insecurities).

It was difficult to go through and I cried myself to sleep many nights.

I needed to be shattered into pieces and broken open so that I could be alone with myself and see what was inside of me.

Find out what was really important.

And begin piecing myself together and creating a beautiful mosaic of a life.

I needed to reinvent myself and heal.  Get to a point where I could let go of the past and want a better life for myself.

I have had my ups and downs through the years and somewhere along the way I have learned that there is so much more to life than living in your past.

I want to learn, grow, thrive, challenge myself, and ask myself “what do I have to give?”  Rather than “What can I get?”

I didn’t do it alone.  I had friends and family for support.

And my true love who doesn’t allow me to stay stuck in the past.

Now I want real things that will last.

It IS True what they say.

“Time Heals”

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