I was still pretty ill at the beginning of this week, but got progressively better as the week went on. I feel blessed to have a boyfriend who takes such good care of me. I guess it isn’t always a bad thing to take some steps back and allow yourself to recover.
I have always thought that the 3 most humbling experiences are:
- Being sick.
- Being injured.
- Being out of shape.
I have had the opportunity to experience all three of these conditions at various times in my life and I think that I am learning to cope better with time. The older I get, the more I realize that your health truly is your wealth. It is up to each of us to take care of ourselves: Body, Mind, and Spirit. It definitely is a balancing act with challenges along the way, but working to achieve that balance is a worthwhile pursuit.
I am still stressed about falling behind in school, but am thankful that we have reached Thanksgiving break so I have another chance to do some catch-up! I spent a fair amount of time questioning myself this week… It must have been all the down time. I started to wonder if I should really consider studying something else that would come easier to me. When I am struggling like I have been; it definitely feels tempting to make the switch. I worry that I am too far behind and am not “smart enough” to do this. More self-doubt…
If I give up now, I will have an incomplete mission. My mission was to challenge myself and to conquer my fears. I have observed a few things about myself. I still have some social anxiety especially when I am not comfortable in the subject matter that we are studying. I get sweaty, anxious, and my mind goes blank. Being sick has magnified everything and has slowed the entire flow down even more. Another observation is that I am still terrible at problem solving. I never used to think that I was smart enough to solve some of the problems that I was faced with. I would always “ask someone smarter.”
One thing that I know for sure is that I DON’T want to be this way forever. I want to be a problem solver and I want to be confident in myself and my own abilities. I don’t want to shrink and hide from situations that make me feel uncomfortable. I want to be stronger and smarter than I am right now.
Another thing that I noticed is that I am pretty sensitive and I get defensive easily. I think it is my way of protecting myself. I really want to be respected. I am tired of being the “nice girl” that people take advantage of and disrespect. I think that I need to learn how to make myself a priority and to consider my needs. I spent so many years helping others and sabotaging myself and I want to change that.
I think I need to learn how to be my own Hero ❤
I know, lots of raw thoughts today… On a lighter note, I have been consistent with my workouts and am thankful that I have established a habit and am enjoying my workouts. It helps me tremendously when you visit me and checkout my “Workout and Word of the Day” I think it holds me accountable and keeps me inspired!
Keep a Contented Heart
Laugh out loud
Use good manners
Give positive reviews
Find an area of refuge
I haven’t done a lot of laughing this month because things have been fairly heavy, but I am okay with that. November has historically been a pretty somber month for me. I just feel blessed that my past is stuck in the past! I know that I can’t always have everything at once, but I Can work towards what I want.
I know what I need to do. I need to put in more study time and increase my GUMPTION. I know that I can do better than this. Now that my health is on the mend, I have a little more energy to move forward!
Who are you spending your Thanksgiving with and what are you bringing to the dinner table?!?! Comment below to share! I would love to hear all about it!
Love, Joy, and Blessings Always,