4 Years ago I was heartbroken from breaking up with my 1st love. I was also dealing with health problems and family challenges. I was taking a downward spiral into the deepest depression of my life…
It felt like my heart had been ripped out of me and slowly crushed to pieces. I cried constantly and tried to escape my reality by eating and sleeping. It almost felt like I had no other choice because it was a daily struggle for me to pull myself out of bed in time for work at 4:30 pm. I felt so heartbroken and so alone…
The worst part was feeling like a broken record that no one could understand. My hopes and dreams felt buried in a distant land that felt impossible to travel to. I had friends who tried to “look out” for me and begged me to start dating. One ex-friend even created an online dating account for me and another friend tried to get me to date a family friend. I tried it for a little while, but All efforts were in vain and I knew that none of it was right. My saving grace was my sister, Aunya. That past summer we went on so any grand adventures together.
Countless heart-to-hearts and she introduced me to the song “Bulletproof Love” which helped me get through my break-up. It became my anthem and I played it non-stop for a year. We even got to meet “Pierce the Veil” at Warped Tour that year for my sister’s 14th Birthday <3.
Even though my heart was broken and being in the midst of that heartbreak was devastating, I still look back on that summer as one of my favorites. That fall I got my nosed pierced and bought my sister our black kitty cat Damon on the same day! I was a rebel on a roll!
I remember the 1st time I ever considered blogging. A friend of mine referred me to a powerful and inspiring blog that helped me get through my heartache. He also highly recommended that I start writing my own blog. I laughed at the thought because I didn’t own a computer and I was so technically challenged. Then 8 months later another friend said that they could see me blogging and being successful. They even said that they could see me creating my own youtube channel. At the time, that was also laughable.
Then at the end of the year I hit rock bottom… I had never felt so heartbroken and depressed in my life. I deleted my facebook then decided to start this blog.
I had no idea what I was doing or what I would write about, but ready or not, I gave it a shot!
This was my 1st ever post:
Blogging became an adventure and a beautiful journey for me. I went through many more struggles after that year. There were a bunch of years when I hardly blogged at all because I did not have a computer (I was computer-less for 3 whole years after I started this blog). Most of my sporadic posts were created on my old iphone 4.
Here are some pictures of me through the years:
I am so happy that I decided to resurrect this blog once again. I am looking forward to writing many more posts and sharing many adventures with all of you!!!
Right now I am in the process of deciding what kind of Project I want to do for 2017. I am definitely going to continue writing my Workout and Word of the Day posts. For awhile I was trying to decide whether or not I wanted to continue my count (I believe that I am in the 90s) or if I want to reset my count each year. If I reset my count, I could compare the amount of workouts I post each year. Or I could just keep an ongoing count… Forever… What do you think I should do?
As far as a project, I am leaning towards doing another Transform Your Life Project. I don’t feel like doing a happiness project because I need to make some lifestyle changes that will automatically contribute to my happiness. Do you have any ideas or suggestions? Comment below to share your thoughts!
What kind of content would you like to see? Blogging has been my “happy place” and the place that I go to find peace and solace. My shoulder to cry on when I am feeling down. My resource for creativity and inspiration and many of my inspirations are all of you.
And finally I want to thank each and every one of you from the bottom of my heart for following me on my journey and LIVING OUT LOUD with me!!! I love you all and your encouragement and support really and truly means the world to me!
Thank you for making this journey a Grand Adventure! Before you go please comment below and share your ideas. Should I reset my count for “Workout and Word of the Day” or should I continue an ongoing count. Also, what kind of project should I do for 2017?!?! I would also like to invite you to join me for a project. We can work towards our goals together and hold each other accountable! And last, but not least, leave me a link to your blog below!
Love, Joy, and Blessings Always,
❤ Alana Xoxoxo