End of January Thoughts…

Hello My Dear Darling Friends!

January is coming to a close and I feel like we are off to a great start.  I have not been blogging as much as I would like because I have been so busy focusing on my nutrition and school work.

Looking back on past years, I have to say that January is a magical month for me in a transformative way.  There have been years when this transformation was very painful and hard because my demons seemed to surface.  The beautiful part is that by the end of this month I was usually able to let them out of the pandora’s box and move forward.

Januarys through the years:


January has a cleansing effect.  There is a chance to let go of the past and a promise of something new.

My past Januarys have been the BEST and the worst of times.


The year that I started this blog was the end of a beautiful year for me.  After having one of the most amazing januarys in my life the year took its toll and I fell into a deep, dark depression.

I did my best to hang in there, but the light dissipated and I felt trapped at the bottom of a deep, dark, never ending tunnel.  Then just like that, when it felt like things could not get any worse, the ground was pulled from beneath me.

From there I had to rebuild my life and reinvent myself.  Beautiful things can happen in the midst of struggle.


I don’t remember much about the following year other than the fact that I was working four jobs and still struggling to stay afloat.  Luckily the grind kept me from falling back into depression.

This sure was a challenging year, but I got through it!


The past year ended with a bang when the man I was dating just disappeared.  No warning, no conversation, just gone…  I didn’t know what went wrong or what happened, but I was determined to start the year on a high note.  I did a polar bear plunge and summoned my tribe of close friends.  From there my inner circle grew and I made some new friends too.  I hit the gym as much as I could, had a loyal workout buddy, met friends for long walks every weekend and took as many Mixxedfit classes as I could.  My confidence was growing and I was feeling good about myself.  Remember how I mentioned the one that got away (or disappeared?)  Well, he came back at the end of February and we became best friends and more than friends and we are still together and stronger than ever!



This year was a transitional point in our lives.  2015 was a WiLd and beautiful ride and we ended it with my man working north of Seattle.  We got a place up north in addition to our house.  I was working full-time at a job that I didn’t love AND I was a full-time student.  It got hectic and I could feel my stress levels rising.


This was the year that I discovered dance.  I also discovered that I am a pretty good judge of character and have a strong sense of intuition that I never used to listen to.  I took a break from computer programming and studying technology (I honestly thought that I had sworn it off for good).  I traded the programming to study dance, anatomy and physiology, and chemistry.  It was a wonderful, much-needed change of pace!  We also adopted a new kitten and built yurts and walls in our living room 🙂

And NOW Here we ARE!!!  2018:

This has been the most magical January of all.  I have a renewed sense of joy and zest for life!  In September I was terribly sick and had a constant debilitating headache that would not go away.  In October and November I was barely functioning and in December I finally started to get back on my feet.  I committed to 30 Days of Yoga and meditation and it helped me to heal.  During this beautiful little snapshot of time I was also reunited with my sister and we got to spend a lot of time together.  We had unorthodox and wonderful holidays and on New Years Eve we ripped out our old carpet and installed hardwood.

I am currently back to studying computer programming and robotics and I absolutely LOVE it!!!  It is funny how things can come around full circle 🙂

My area of focus for the month of January has been “discipline” and I am happy with the work that I have done.  I have been consistently planning out my meals and weighing my food.  Also eating fruits and veggies on the daily.  Last week I tried taking a rest from exercise to focus solely on nutrition, but I am the type of person who NEEDS to move her body!  I get my wiggles out with Buti Yoga and I just started swimming this week!!!

I hope January has been a wonderful month for you.  Take some time to reflect on your past Januarys and lets celebrate the progress we have made together!  What is one area in your life that you have cultivated and are proud of?  Please comment below to share!!!

Love, Joy, and Blessings Always,

❤ Alana xoxoxo 

10 thoughts on “End of January Thoughts…

  1. I’m so glad you’re keeping up with focusing on your nutrition too. Why did the guy you were dating disappear? Even if he came back, I’m curious to know why. Was it for personal reasons or was it related to your relationship? I’m sorry if I’m asking!!

    As for me, January is a mix bag of emotions. The big day is coming so soon and I feel like we’re underprepared. It’s the planner in me. I’m slowly turning into bridezilla and not in a good/fun way. I hate it!

    1. Thanks Kat! I am starting to feel some good differences and I have a lot more energy. My bf had just had me over for Christmas with his family for the first time. Right before he stopped talking to me he said, “I’m sorry, I am unsure of myself and the world.” Then he disappeared.
      He was going through a period of figuring out what he wanted in life and what his goals were and he wanted to make sure he was making choices based on what he wanted without outside influences. Then he realized while we were apart that he missed me and that we could do all those things together. So a month later we started talking and dating and we have been together ever since.
      I kind of needed to do the same thing because I didn’t really trust men after my past.

      When is the big day again? I bet everything is going to be beautiful!!!

      ❤ Alana

      1. I liked that he took time off to figure things out for himself. I like it more that he came back. ❤ I think a lot of people forget (especially when in relationships) that you also have to figure out yourself and that requires some alone time. I was single for 23 years before finally having a boyfriend and I think it was a good decision to just enjoy my youth first. Of course, I still haven't figured out the rest of my life but I know who I am and what I can do without having any sort of outside pressure. 🙂

        The big day is going to happen this month. It's about two weeks from now…..I'm a big ball of stress. Someone help me!! T_T

      2. Yes, it really worked out well for both of us and I am glad we ended up getting back together <3. I never dated or kissed anyone until I was 18 and in college 🙂 Must be a filipino thing 🙂 It was actually nice and kept me out of trouble.
        I am so excited for you and your big day. It is going to be magical. I can't wait to hear about it! I wish I could help somehow. Xoxo

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