Hello My Dear Darling Friends!
We made it through the 1st month of 2018! Overall January was a good month. My area of focus was discipline and I did the best in the first week. I stuck with my strict nutrition plan 7 days in a row, but I noticed that my discipline started to break down after that.
In week 2 I was still fairly disciplined, but could not say no whenever I was offered late night snacks. Then in week 3 and 4 I didn’t even need to wait for someone to offer me a snack because I was eating those midnight munchies on my own.
This week I decided to take a “break” from my diet and to be more mindful of my choices. I haven’t given up on this plan, but I am taking a break until February 14th. I might even start again sooner if I feel up to it.
I think the best thing that happened this past week is that I started swimming and coding again. As I mentioned last week, my friend Tara and I have scheduled 3 weekly swims. This morning was our 4th swim of the year!
This weekend I finally stopped procrastinating and started coding again. I decided to start a new tutorial from the beginning to fill in whatever gaps might have formed over the past few months. There’s nothing like going back to the basics.
- Count your blessings. I am going to start writing in my book of blessings every day. I want to make sure that I am not taking my blessings for granted.
- Learn about faith. I have not been very religious in the past few years. I would like to spend more time learning about faith.
- Actively build your confidence. My confidence has suffered a little because I frequently see someone who makes me feel defensive. I hate that feeling and the fact that this is even an issue, but it definitely does affect my confidence. I can usually get along with anyone and the fact that this person’s words upsets me does not feel good. I think it will give me an opportunity to practice responding calmly rather than defensively reacting.
- Believe in Miracles.
- Believe in Yourself! I have started taking my dog Ruby for long walks and listening to podcasts along the way. This has helped me to actively build my confidence.
Have you ever met someone who makes you feel super defensive nearly every time you interact? I have been blessed to not have to interact with many people like this, but I am currently dealing with one right now. We have had a couple of friendly conversations, but I have started to notice that after each friendly conversation this person comes back the next time with some kind of complaint. Complaints usually don’t bother me and I am quick to find a solution, but it feels like this person lines her words with venom and I am not even sure if she is meaning to do this.
The first time we had an uncomfortable interaction was because we had guests at our home and the guests shared the upstairs bathroom with her. She said she would need to know when we were going to have guests so that she could budget for it. She also said that her move out here was really expensive. When I asked what kind of supplies she needed she said toilet paper so I said, “Here I will get you some rolls right now. I’ll be right back.. ” Then she yelled and said, “you don’t have to get it right now.” I came back to talk with her and was surprised that she was gone. I left her 8 rolls of toilet paper in her bathroom and the next day she called me passive aggressive because I walked away and she didn’t feel like she could talk to me. I told her that I went to get the toilet paper and was ready to listen, but she had walked away. I just have to say that if “rolls were reversed” and she had given me toilet paper I would have said, “thank you.”
I apologize, I am totally ranting right now, but I need to get this off of my chest because it has been bothering me so much.
This past Friday night we made soup in the kitchen. We usually try to keep our kitchen pretty tidy, but we were up so late and were going to deal with the kitchen the next day. When I got home from the store she was in the kitchen sweeping with an upset expression. She asked, “did you guys have a party last night or something?” And I said, “No, why?” She said that it was just messier than usual and also part of her shower curtain had come down. I didn’t really no what to say. I cleaned up the kitchen and everything is fine, but I realized that she always makes me feel so defensive and it bothers me. At this point I would rather just avoid interacting with her if I can help it.
I know that ranting about this is probably not the most mature thing that I have ever done, but it sure felt good to get it off of my chest. I have had roommates before and We have had many tenants in the past and I have gotten along with all of them. Am I being too sensitive or overreacting? How would you handle a situation like this? Would you avoid this person or try to work things out? Please comment below to share your thoughts and ideas.
I have been so stressed about these interactions lately, that it is interfering with my joy and peace. I definitely need to find a way to be at peace with this situation because it is not like me to feel this way.
Love, Joy, and Blessings Always,
❤ Alana Xoxoxo