Hello My Dear Darling Friends!
I had a wonderful week, but I think I felt a little worn out by the end of it. Thankfully today is one of those beautifully sunny, blue-sky days. There is nothing like some sunshine to uplift our spirits.
I am continuing to work on my sketch which feels like it is taking forever, but today I had to cancel my lesson because I was too tired. On Wednesday I got a nice long massage and I tried cupping for the very first time. The massage was nice and cupping was a new experience and I woke up feeling like a new person the next day!
I was going to say that my primary workout this past week was yoga, but I actually enjoyed a nice variety! I met my friend Phuong for a nice long walk several times and on Friday I went to a Remix Dance fitness class which was a blast!
On Saturday I went on a “double date” with my mom and my friend Danielle and her mom. We went to a local dance festival which featured 14 different dance companies from a wide range of styles from ballet to tap to riverdance and belly dance. It was so enjoyable and inspiring, but I do have to admit that it was hard for me to sit still that entire time! I guess some things never change 🙂
I was literally on cloud 9 all week long, but then by Sunday I started feeling down. I think it was probably because my sleep schedule is still pretty wacky. I am a little stressed because it is the end of winter quarter. And I got some sad news about my dad’s health and my family overall is having a hard time.
Additionally I have a close friend who I will always consider a good friend, but she often is brutally honest and gives good advice and tries to prepare me for growing older since she has been through those seasons in her life. I have to say that sometimes it is hard for me to accept reality because it makes me sad. After our conversation I felt so bad about that fact that my bf and I have smoked weed. I also felt extremely worried about my sister and my parents. I worry about my mom and dad’s health and hope and pray that my dad will hang in there for awhile longer. She also said something that has bothered me more than I think it should. She said that my good looks would go away in a few years. I don’t like to think of myself as a vain person, but I also do like to feel beautiful and for some reason those words have stuck in my mind and make me fear the future. Also, she said that I should take chemistry and still pursue my bachelor of science degree which I guess is also true, but all this information was overwhelming to me. And I have been dragging along these past few days.
I think this is a good opportunity for me to take my own advice “Take the BEST then leave the rest!”
I definitely appreciate heartfelt advice, but if it makes me feel this sad then I need to look at everything from a different angle. I also know that this is a part of life. I am not always going to be happy and that is okay. Also, not everyone is going to like me and that is okay too.
- Meditate. I did a Great job with this on Thursday, Friday, and Saturday, but I got off track on Sunday and Monday. I will pick it up again this evening.
- Breathe Deeply. I think I need to spend more time on this too.
- Yoga EVERY DAMN Day!!! I have done yoga every day except Sunday when I decided to take a rest.
- Sing. I know that singing will help me to breathe deeply. I am so tempted to take that Music Theory Intensive program this quarter, but I wonder if it would be more “responsible” for me to take computer science… Probably. I am also worried that I no longer have a good singing voice anymore. Tomorrow I am going to the academic fair and I will let you know what I end up doing.
- Begin Spring cleaning. This always helps me to feel better.
- Laugh out LOUD. Christopher and I have had some good laughs these past few days so I am thankful for that!
I almost forgot that my focus for this month is Peace and I am so glad that it is! Overall it was a wonderful week just the tail end was a little more challenging because I was feeling sad, but after I wrote this post I am going to take my dog for a podcast walk in the sunshine!
My other exciting news is that I am thinking of taking the 200 RYT yoga instructor course possibly in July. There are still poses I cannot do, but I will keep practicing. Also if this ends up happening it would be perfect timing since my 30th birthday is at the end of August. But then there is that other voice that says I should stay back and take summer school so I will keep you posted on this too 🙂
How was your week? Comment below to share!
Love, Joy, and Blessings Always,
❤ Alana Xoxoxo