Counting The Days

One thing that I have learned about myself is the fact that I absolutely love counting the days.

For example, I have a 725-day streak on My Fitness Pal and yesterday I reached Day #1,240 in my journal.

I love graphs, lists, and checking things off.  I think it keeps me motivated and is a fun way to chart progress, commitment, and dedication.  What do those 1,240 days represent?  I think it all started almost exactly 6 years ago when I was going through that painful break-up.  It was a mutual break-up, but my heart still felt ripped in two I am so thankful that I had my sister to help me get through.

I tried all kinds of different methods of healing.  I read that rose quartz heals the heart and started making jewelry with semi-precious stones.  I also got as many lavender candles and oils as I possibly could.

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I wrote in my journal and sketched and filled my life with adventures.  It was nice to learn how to enjoy my own company.  That ended up being one of the best summers for my sister and I.

I love my broken-hearted butterflies.  Even they can Fly and connect with other hearts to become whole again.

I learned that the most effective way to heal was to actively move forward with my life and to not make contact with that person.  That felt like the hardest thing to do at the time, but it worked.  I deleted the number from my phone, cried myself to sleep for many nights, and started counting the days…

Once I got started I started to feel a sense of accomplishment so I continued counting days.  I am sure that many more days have passed.  I mean there are approximately 2,190 days in 6 years, but the days that I counted were days that I journaled.

That person was right “Time Heals.”  After awhile I was able to piece my heart back together to become stronger than ever.  Soon after that I was able to open up my heart to love again.

I continued counting the days even after the pain faded.  It felt good to keep track of the progress I had made through the years 🙂

So here I am now at a crossroads in my life.  We have closed another volume in our lives and are here in a new place.  I am also turning 30 in about 2 months.  I still feel myself trying to hang on to my old count, but I think it is time to let that one go.

I just finished the journal that I have been writing in since January and am starting a new journal today.  This seems like a perfect time to start counting new days and today I will start with Day 1.

So here’s to Day 1 and many more beautiful memories!

Love, Joy, and Blessings Always,

❤ Alana

2 thoughts on “Counting The Days

  1. Hi Alana!! It’s been a while! I feel like there’s much to catch up on your life!! We both know how similar we sometimes are… Just like you, I love checking things off. It eases my mind and makes me feel like I did something good for the day. Sometimes there are days I didn’t check things off and I need to tell myself it’s okay, tomorrow’s another day, just keep doing it :). Will go through your posts, so hang on for lots of comments haha :p. xoxo Sarah

    1. Hi Sarah! I was just thinking of you! I just reentered the blogosphere again after being gone for over a month 🙂 I agree. I kind of see checklists as possibilities. Ideally I would love to get it all done, but I have learned to be okay even when I check off a few items off those lists! I will be visiting and commenting on your posts too! ❤ Alana

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