Be-YOU-tifully YOU Project: Week #30

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Hello My Dear Darling Friends!

Welcome to the final day of July 2018!!!  This upcoming month is kind of a BIG deal because at the end of August, I am turning 30!!!  That means that this is the final month of my 20’s and I have mixed feelings about it…

I am kind of sad that it is almost over, but also SO happy that it happened!

I have been spending a fair amount of time making peace with growing older, but it sure is scary as hell!  I think my fear becomes the strongest when I compare myself to where I thought “I should be by now” versus “where I am in this current moment.”

And where I am, right here and now,  really is a beautiful place!

This past week specifically was bittersweet.  I think I was very affected by the full moon and all that jazz…  I felt very sad and for a long time, I could not even figure out why.  Then I finally narrowed it down to being homesick.  I realized that while I am so happy in my new home, I am still homesick.  I miss my family and friends, but most of all I think I miss the familiarity of it all.

I lived in our hometown for 26 years and never left that place for more than 2 years at a time.  I had lots of time to explore and grown and learn my way around and it was very comfortable.

I grew accustomed to knowing where all the beautiful places were and showing them to my dearest friends.

But drop me in a brand new place and I get anxious…  It is not a bad thing just natural.  I noticed that once I admitted that I was homesick (to myself and my friends) a shift finally started taking place.

On Thursday night my new friend / co-worker Nichole invited me to go to the beach with her on Friday which is our day off.  I was excited, but also so nervous.  In fact, on Thursday night I almost cancelled, but looking back I am so glad that I decided to be brave.

I pulled on my swimming suit and got ready to go to the beach.  We met and she gave me a tour of some of the most beautiful places and then we spent all afternoon at the beach.  It was a dream come true!  The best part was when I got to swim in the ocean!

JULY:

JOY

  • Be Confident.  I have not felt very confident this week and I think a huge reason why is because I am so home-sick.
  • Take time for self-care.  I am doing a great job with self-care.  In fact this is the best that I have ever done in my entire life!  I am practicing yoga and pilates on a nearly daily basis.
  • Nurture your relationships.  Yes, this is a constant work in progress, but it is always worth-it!
  • Seek inspiration.  My fear and homesickness was turning me into quite the recluse, but I am so happy that I finally decided to venture out this week.
  • De-clutter.  I am getting into a good cleaning routine and it is about time for a de-clutter session for sure!
  • Bring out the BEST in others.  I could do a better job with this.  I am focusing on myself first!

So yes, Friday felt like a perfect day but then I was a total emotional mess on Saturday and Sunday and I did not break free until yesterday.

July is historically a very sad and emotionally charged time for me due to my past.  I need to remember that this time around I am supported and loved.

And life is more Beautiful than ever!

We all have a choice.  We can fear life and hide or we can choose to be brave, embrace life for all that it is and have experiences and adventures of a lifetime!

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Here is my Be-YOU-tifully YOU picture of the week!

Always remember…

Be Real. Be True. Be-YOU-tifully YOU!!!

❤ Alana Xoxoxo

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