I Don’t Want To Slow Down

3 weeks ago I was working.

2 weeks ago I was packing.

1 week ago I was moving then flying.

This week I started school..

On Monday I ran 13 different errands.

I had a headache for 4 days.  When that went away I caught a head cold that is lingering and today my stomach started acting up.

To make matters more complicated, the weather is absolutely gorgeous and there is so much that I want to do.

Today could have been great.  It is the start of a 4-day weekend and my friend Diana invited me to go swimming in the harbor.  I said yes in a heartbeat, but when I got home from school; my body said no.  I almost dashed off to take a dance fitness class a few moments ago and I could have made it, but my head feels heavy and disconnected so I think I am better off staying in and resting.

I am beginning to see that it is hard for me to slow down.  The funny thing is that I could be sedentary for months and not think anything of it, but once I get into a routine and pick up momentum I feel guilty about resting and slowing down.

I think that I have always been like this and it has gotten me into trouble in the past.  I kept pushing and got so sick that I had to rest until I was better.

Right now I am giving myself permission to slow down, rest, recover, and heal.

No guilt.  No shame.  No calling names..