Break-ups Suck…

It’s been 18 days…

I thought it would be nearly impossible and there was a time when I could not imagine life without you.  I would wake up and could barely function until my lips felt your warmth and once they did I would come alive.  Sometimes I would need to find you multiple times and I noticed that I just could not get enough of you.  You were becoming a habit and a habit I was proud to indulge…

I decided I would try and break the cycle once I started school again.  I figured it would be healthy for me to try and exist and see if I still had any energy naturally.

The first week was awful.  I had an awful headache that lasted 4 days and was getting worst each day.  And then I felt absolutely drained and like I was in a daze.  After that I felt completely sick.

It’s been 18 days since I broke up with coffee and I am proud of the fact that I am not going back!  For awhile…

Now I need to break up with sugar!

I am convinced that sugar is absolutely addictive.  The problem is that even if I have a little bit it feels nearly impossible to stop because it makes me feel so good.  I get that flood of “feel good feelings” I think it’s called dopamine in other terms.  This happened just this past Sunday.  I went to Trader Joe’s and was buying very healthy food and then something caught my eye.  I knew that I wanted a little dark chocolate because I read that it can be good for your brain and I saw something that said “Dark Chocolate Pistachios” I was in a rush so I grabbed it.  Then when I took a bite I realized that it was toffee dipped in dark chocolate sprinkled with pistachios.  HUGE difference!  I had the nice thought to either toss it out on the spot or bring it to class to share with my class mates.  The bad news is that now those pistachio covered sugar bombs are all gone because I ate them.

My willpower is not strong enough to resist the addictive quality of sugar.  But there’s hope!  The good new is that  the less I have it, the less I want it.  

I was feeling very down in the dumps and ashamed of myself for having so much sugar these past few days.  I have been working my A$$ off in the gym and eating cleaner than I ever have in my entire life.  I know that if I keep giving in to my sugar fix addiction that all of my efforts will be in vain and wasted.  That is the cold, hard truth and I don’t want to give up now!

I reminded myself of the fact that I successfully broke up with coffee and not so long ago I thought that would be impossible.

So now I am breaking up with sugar right here and now!

I am still going to eat some fruit with my breakfast and the only other exception will be my whey protein supplement which is very low in protein, but other than that I am giving it up.

I feel like I need to do this for myself, my health, and my future.  I have been a slave to sugar nearly my entire life and it shows in my waistline.  I would love to conquer this demon now.

I have a feeling that this break up is going to get messy please let me know if you have any tips or tricks.

Comment below with your tips and tricks and wish me luck!

❤ Alana xoxoxo

9 thoughts on “Break-ups Suck…

      1. CLICKBAIT, LOL. I’m actually feeling down too! I gained 7 pounds and my PCOS is acting up again and now I’m getting sad cause I have to start my diet and exercise again but I know it’s my fault too cause I stopped but but but food is so good T_T I just wish I can eat anything I want without affecting my PCOS 😦

      2. I know, right?! Awww I have PCOS too so I understand the challenges. You got this though! You will feel so good from the exercise and will hopefully feel less sad about it too. How are you doing?

      3. I’m feeling down, to be honest! I just can’t believe I let myself gain weight. I’m also overworked. I need a couple of days for myself. That’s what I really need!

      4. Awww I’m sorry you are feeling down. I know that stress makes me gain weight. To me 7 lbs does not sound like a lot because I still have like 50 lbs to lose and I have lost about 20 since the beginning of the summer. But I also understand. It is not just the weight it is feeling critical of yourself for allowing it to get to this point. I hope you can take some time for yourself soon. Do you get time off at all? Hang in there. I hope things get better. ❤ xoxo Also, I am here for you if you ever need to vent. Wish I could do more to help.

        ❤ Alana

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