I woke up this morning not wanting to do a damn thing so I slept in and thankfully there is no class on Mondays. Do you ever feel that way? This happens to me when the seasons change, I can hear the rain, and the days become colder and shorter. Fall is my favorite month, but right around this time I get a little stuck. I feel stressed and I do not think that I really need to be and even that feels stressful.
Let’s talk about something good, shall we?!?!
I did intermittent fasting for an entire week and noticed that I felt a little out of it and struggled to sleep on some nights. I expect that there will be an adjustment period and I am planning to stick with it. I have decided to drop the melatonin at night and add 1 cup of coffee in the morning that will hopefully help me feel more focused.
I am also trying out a keto way of eating. I did some good food prepping yesterday and am looking forward to this week although yesterday was not a true keto day because I had that last slice of ono banana bread that my mom made. I just did not have the heart to let it go to waste.
I feel so unmotivated to work out, but I have worked out consistently for the last 5 weeks and I do not want to quit right now. I am making progress and want to continue growing stronger.
This past week really was quite BLAH, so I am not going to go into the details. My highlight of the week was Friday when we had our Zumba 80’s party. I was feeling so depressed that I almost didn’t even go, but I am glad that I decided to “suit up,” put on some fun 80’s makeup and go for it!
I am worried. The last thing I want to do is lose all the progress I have made just because I feel a certain way. I know that feelings are very powerful and they matter, but I also need to remember that feelings are temporary and they change.
This time of year is historically a struggle for me and I feel myself falling into that same pattern. I am going to change that pattern this year. This is a new decade of my life and I have the power to change it. I think I need to be more disciplined. This discipline will help me work towards my goals even when my motivation breaks down.
OCTOBER:
ZEAL
- Hone in Focus. I am trying, but it has been hard. Hopefully a cup of coffee a day will help!
- Examine True Rules.
- Stimulate the mind in new ways. Again, it has been hard for me to concentrate, but I think the fact that I am dancing and exercising more is stimulating my mind in positive way!
I cannot believe that this is already the final week of October. It is time to start thinking about those November goals!
NOVEMBER:
RESPECT
- Use good manners.
- Respect your body, heart, soul, and mind.
- Give positive reviews.
- Offer a helping hand.
- Honor and respect others.
I am reading a very well-written yet triggering book for my class. It goes over the mistreatment of women in the workplace especially immigrants, janitors, and farm workers. I have probably read over a dozen cases of sexual assault and it is heartbreaking and brings me back to a sad, low, place.
I feel like overall, this week is off to a rocky start, but I don’t want to carry this depressing vibe with me the entire week so I am going to try to shake it off in Zumba class this morning. I will try when I would rather cry. And smile even if it simply means turning the corners of my lips up.
What do you do when you feel like your week is off to a bad start? Please comment below to share!
Be Real. Be True. Be-YOU-tifully YOU.
❤ Alana Xoxoxo
