It is strange to go from so much excitement to winter break…
Not so long ago, I was working my tail off in every aspect of my life. I was helping to run a business, taking a 16 credit program at school, working on a group project by myself, eating clean, working out hard, and hanging out with a super cool person just a week ago.
Then everything changed…
My 4-year relationship crumbled a little. I got through that presentation. I earned all of my credits. This week I had to move and return my transportation. It is a stressful time and I think that I hate when people know that I am struggling.
I have settled into a new place, but still feel so restless and unsettled as a whole.
The theme of my life is: “What now?”
Without transportation it is tricky for me to get to the gym and I have missed so much zumba that it is taking a toll on my mental health.
It almost feels like I have too much time with not enough to occupy my mind. I miss those lunch hour power-walks and heart-to-heart talks along with all those firsts.
In the course of one week I decided to switch programs 3 times and this past Friday I finally decided that I am going to do my internship that I worked so hard on getting approved. I have been feeling exhausted, drained, and depressed, but am doing my very best to hold everything together.
What is my solution? It is time for me to challenge and stretch myself.
I am a diamond under pressure and am ready to get to the next level. It is time for me to be the phoenix rising from her ashes.