Hello My Dear Darling Friends!
January is coming to a close and I think it is good timing! The first half of the month (and the beginning of this year) felt a little rocky. I was in the process of moving and major life changes. I also think that it felt like a bit of a culture shock to go from staying in my home town surrounded by friends to going to a new place and not knowing anyone. I have started over many times, but this time was a little more of a spur of the moment decision.
Looking back on past years, I have to say that January is a magical month for me in a transformative way. There have been years when this transformation was very painful and hard because my demons seemed to surface. The beautiful part is that by the end of this month I was usually able to let them out of the pandora’s box and move forward.
Januarys through the years:
January has a cleansing effect. There is a chance to let go of the past and a promise of something new.
My past Januarys have been the BEST and the worst of times.
The year that I started this blog was the end of a beautiful year for me. After having one of the most amazing januarys in my life the year took its toll and I fell into a deep, dark depression.
I did my best to hang in there, but the light dissipated and I felt trapped at the bottom of a deep, dark, never ending tunnel. Then just like that, when it felt like things could not get any worse, the ground was pulled from beneath me.
From there I had to rebuild my life and reinvent myself. Beautiful things can happen in the midst of struggle.
I don’t remember much about the following year other than the fact that I was working four jobs and still struggling to stay afloat. Luckily the grind kept me from falling back into depression. Staying busy has a way of keeping you on your toes!
2014 ended with a bang when the man I was dating just disappeared. No warning, no conversation, just gone… I didn’t know what went wrong or what happened, but I was determined to start the off year on a high note. I did a polar bear plunge and summoned my tribe of close friends. From there my inner circle grew and I made some new friends too. I hit the gym as much as I could, had a loyal workout buddy, met friends for long walks every weekend and took as many Mixxedfit classes as I could. My confidence was growing and I was feeling good about myself. Remember how I mentioned the one that got away (or disappeared?) Well, he came back at the end of February and we became best friends and more than friends and we are still together and stronger than ever!
That year we bought our first house, he graduated from college, I got to quit my dead-end job and jumped right into another full time. AND I was finally a student again!
This year was a transitional point in our lives. 2015 was a WiLd and beautiful ride and we ended it with my man working north of Seattle. We got a place up north in addition to our house. I was working full-time at a job that I didn’t love AND I was a full-time student. It got hectic and I could feel my stress levels rising. The good news is that we made it to beautiful New Zealand and then I came back right on time to dive head first into Computer Science Foundations.
This was the year that I discovered dance. I also discovered that I am a pretty good judge of character and have a strong sense of intuition that I never used to listen to. I took a break from computer programming and studying technology (I honestly thought that I had sworn it off for good). I traded the programming to study dance, anatomy and physiology, and chemistry. It was a wonderful, much-needed change of pace! We also adopted a new kitten and built yurts and walls in our living room 🙂
2018 The End of an Era:
At the beginning of 2018 I had a renewed sense of joy and zest for life! In September I was terribly sick and had a constant debilitating headache that would not go away. In October and November I was barely functioning and in December I finally started to get back on my feet. I committed to 30 Days of Yoga and meditation and it helped me to heal. During this beautiful little snapshot of time I was also reunited with my sister and we got to spend a lot of time together. We had unorthodox and wonderful holidays and on New Years Eve we ripped out our old carpet and installed hardwood.
I went back to studying computer programming and robotics and I absolutely LOVED it!!! It is funny how things can come around full circle 🙂
The year continued to get more and more exciting. My friend Diana adopted Ruby and then that set off a chain of events. We sold our 1st house then set off on an epic road trip with 2 cars, 2 cats, and my sister. Our first stop was Jacksonville, Florida where we went to meet up with some biohackers. From there we drove north to Maine and bought a 2nd house which is basically my dream “dollhouse.”
I came home for a quarter of school and felt like I came back to life! I got to be reunited with my closest friends and made so many beautiful, new friends. I also got to dance to my heart’s content. The end of December was kind of rough, but I got through it.
I honestly feel like I blinked and then the entire year went by. How did this happen? I feel like I was just reflecting on last January and now here we are. This year I decided to be brave and move to a new place. I am also continuing to embrace my fitness journey. My love for coding has also been rekindled and I am excited to see where my skills are going to take me. I have high hopes for this year ❤
I hope January has been a wonderful month for you. Take some time to reflect on your past Januarys and lets celebrate the progress we have made together! What is one area in your life that you have cultivated and are proud of? Please comment below to share!!!
Love, Joy, and Blessings Always,
❤ Alana xoxoxo