Be-YOU-tifully YOU Project 2.0 #16

2019

Hello My Dear Darling Friends,

My Grandma Alice went to heaven on Good Friday evening.

I feel heartbroken know that she is gone, but happy that she passed peacefully and is in a much better place.  It still feels unreal…  That fact that she is gone.  I am so thankful for all the happy memories and adventures I got to spend with both Grandma and Grandpa.  Many of my favorite memories (especially growing up) were with her.

I am so thankful that I got to talk with her one last time a few Sundays ago.  I had tried calling her for a few months, but nobody ever picked up the phone.  Then something in my heart told me to try again and to my delight and surprise, Grandma Alice answered!  We had such  a lovely conversation.  I told her about how I was planning on going to a city in the big island and she said, “I grew up 100 miles away from that city!”  Isn’t it amazing that I remember that?  She then told me about how it has the best weather in the world and feels like paradise.  I got to tell Grandma about my life.  Where I am currently living and the fact that I am finally going to graduate soon.  Most importantly I told her that I love her.

A few weeks later, I have been feeling heartbroken about the fact that I could not be by her side during her final days and that I did not get to say goodbye, but I am so thankful that I got to talk with her.  I said everything that I needed to say.

APRIL: GRIT

“Grit is that ‘extra something’ that separates the most successful people from the rest.  It’s the passion, perseverance, and stamina that we must channel in order to stick with our dreams until they become a reality.”   

-Travis Bradberry

  • Wake up a little earlier for an early start.
  • Do what you must and do it with ALL your heart.
  • Train a little harder.
  • Blog everyday
  • Give something up.
  • Learn a new language and / or expand on what you have learned so far.
  • Study marketing.

I trained hard all week with my workouts, but my mind felt so preoccupied that I was not always focused on what I was doing.  I think my heart has been so heavy with grief and sadness and I hope that this will only be temporary.  I moved very slowly and often felt like I was just going through the motions.

I am glad that I still managed to show up even though my heart was broken.

Here are this week’s blog posts:

I have been crying a lot and feeling like I am on the edge of a deep depression.  Thankfully, I am supported and loved, but it is hard to deal with grief.  “Gone forever” just seems so final.

April is almost over and this is the 3rd death of someone that I love just in this year.  I guess these are more opportunities to practice letting go.

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This week’s Be-YOU-tiful pic ❤

How do you deal with loss, grief, and depression?  Comment below to share!

❤ Alana

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