Hello My Dear Darling Friends!
A new and exciting chapter in my life has begun. I enjoyed my time in Scottsdale, Arizona, but it was starting to get so hot so I have come back to my home town for a few weeks to spend time with my family and friends. Soon it will be time for another exciting adventure.
Alleyjandra and Carl (our cats) are pro travelers and kept me company throughout the drive. Departure took place on May first and arrival was on May 4th. This time of year (springtime) is definitely the most beautiful season here. I missed the cherry blossoms, but have been enjoying the snowball bushes and lilacs.
I am honestly in a weird space mentally and physically. It could be that time of month, but also the fact that so many changes are happening. I have been so hard on myself physically and have been so stressed about the fact that I have not made it to the gym since Saturday since I have been busy traveling. I really do not appreciate the amount of pressure and stress I am putting on myself. I was so consistent with my workouts and they helped me face my fear of gyms and build my confidence. Now that I am not currently doing that; I feel guilty.
I did a home workout on an app and it helped me work up a sweat, but I do not think it was enough and it kind of upset me. Also, I have still been active. On Sunday I hiked with my friends down to the beach and we swam around then hiked back. Then yesterday I went on about half a dozen walks.
I think I am afraid…
I am afraid of losing the progress that I have made. I am afraid to going back to what I used to be… Afraid of who I am becoming…
The worst part is that I know that this stress is so unnecessary. Am I looking for things to be upset about when so many things are going well and the blessings are falling into place?
How do I get out of this space?
“For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others. For beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness. And for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone.”
- Be generous.
- Be present.
- Don’t gossip.
- Write letters.
- Remember Birthdays.
- Do something nice for someone.
I think that additionally, I need to practice kindness towards myself because I have been so unkind…
Here are my weekly posts:
At this moment, you can probably guess that I am a little upset about only doing 3 posts. Overall, I am in an uneasy space. I just need to learn how to be happy again.