Yesterday I had a permanent scowl on my face and I was not even trying to hide it.
I think I have been putting too much pressure on myself. I was so proud of my consistent workout habit and have been feeling bummed about not going to the gym the past 3 days. That is what happens when you travel a lot. You cannot always make it to the gym…
My mind has been going to crazy places worrying that I will go back to the way I was when I was unhappy, overweight, and out of shape.
I realized that when I get down I get LOW.
I get low, but it is not in a good way. I become inconsolable to myself and those (poor souls around me) and nothing can snap me out of my funk.
Blue skies and sunny days have nothing on me when I am getting down low. This went on for a few days, but it has been the worst for 2 solid days I mean, I even turned down ice cream two nights ago and I NEVER do that!
So yesterday I forced myself to talk with my friends and it uplifted my spirits. I have still noticed that I am leaning towards being too hard on myself, but I want to learn to love myself again.
I want to love myself the way I am right here and now rather than thinking I have to suffer to be strong and beautiful. I don’t like the sides of me that were brought out by feeling down.
The past 5 months of working out have taught me that I am unstoppable, strong, and can be very consistent, but the past 3 days showed me that I need to strengthen and improve my mental game.
I am sad that I have been in such a negative space mentally when so many beautiful things are happening in my life right now. I don’t want the illusions in my mind to overshadow the truly wonderful blessings in my life right now. So I am challenging myself to make the best of each day in the best way that I can.
How do you pull yourself out of depression? Please comment below to share!