The beginning of this week starting last weekend was heartbreaking, sad, and scary. My kitten was sick and dying and it hurt to see him suffer. He would not eat and he became so fragile and gaunt to the point where I could feel his bones. We brought him to the vet and the tests and x-rays were fairly inconclusive, but I am glad we brought him in. Thankfully, he was still sipping water through the days that he was ill. That evening I sang him my made-up (in Scottsdale) “Breakfast Time Rhyme” and he started eating. Since then, he is doing a lot better and I have hope that he could recover. I hope and pray.
Distance brings me closer to the people I love. I was not talking to my Mom for a long time, but now we chat and txt on a daily basis. My sister and I have many heart-to-hearts and I have dreams of my Grandma Alice on a weekly basis. Last summer I felt like I had more friends than I do now, but I was so lonely.
I know less people here than I have ever known anywhere, but it feels like home. I can count the number of people that I know by name on less than one hand here, but I do not feel lonely or isolated. I have lived places where I have known more people than I could count on both hands, but felt so alone. This place is a place that I used to only dream of visiting “someday.” I remember taking in the beautiful scenery as the plane was landing with tears in my eyes feeling like I had come home. This place feels like home.
I am no longer obsessed with my weight and the way that I look and I feel healthier than I have ever been. I think that living well and being joyful and happy are the best ways to get healthy. I do still feel a little fear around aging, but that will be a work in progress.
I am in love and I love my life. Sometimes people disappear, but the ones who matter will stay there with you even through the storms of life and on those days when you can barely stand yourself. Cherish every moment. A love like that should never be taken for granted.
I am dreaming big dreams and it is inspiring.
Some days will be good and others will feel absolutely awful, but remember that there are everyday blessings. Take some time to feel thankful for the good things. What are you thankful for today?