Hello My Dear Darling Friends!
This week was emotionally taxing for me and probably everyone around me. I have been so busy with work and I think it is time for me to create a better work/life balance for myself.
All of my needs are cared for. I have a beautiful place to call home, good food, my own car, a healthy relationship, and a great job (I love working for myself.) Additionally, I am healthy and uninjured which is kind of rare for me. Somehow, I still manage to worry and stress about just about everything and it is honestly cramping my style.
Here is what a typical day looks like for me. I wake up and my boyfriend brings me coffee. From there I start working and then we go to breakfast or make food. While I wait for my reports to process I work out in the garden. Then I send out the reports, submit new requests, then run errands or work in the garden in the meantime. It is not a bad life at all. In fact it is pretty amazing and I never want to take it for granted. Business has been so good that sometimes I work into the night. This is what you do when you run your own business. You keep working until the work is done, but lately, it has been feeling like I am continually running behind. The truth is that I am doing fine. The volume of work has just gone up with more clients. My bf has been suggesting that I hire someone to work for me so that I can free up my time, but I am so stubborn. I take pride in my work and I want to do it all. I think that I should probably give this suggestion some consideration in the near future.
I want to learn how to harness my emotions and handle stress better. I am sensitive and emotional and it is harder for me to forgive, forget, and let go. This has been an ongoing challenge for me. I think that spending time outside in the garden has been good for me. Working with the soil and getting down low helps me to feel grounded.
I think I have mentioned before that the month of July is usually very emotionally challenging for me. I had past trauma and heartbreak in this month and I think those residual feelings and emotions still linger in my soul. I want to learn how to honor my past, but to not allow it to trap me and make me feel small. It is now safe for me to be happy, complete, and free. I just need to believe in myself.
Here are my blog posts from this past week:
- What To Write About
- Now What?
- Craving Something Sweet…
- I don’t miss who I was, but I do miss her
- Gypsy Living
“Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened.”
- Be Confident. I practiced good posture as much as I could and I think that helped me to feel confident. Sometimes it feels artificially inflated, but hopefully it will become more natural with time.
- Take time for self-care. I need to do more of this.
- Nurture your relationships. I was very difficult to be around this week. I was so moody and volatile and I put that on myself.
- Seek inspiration.
- Bring out the BEST in others.
Why am I so damn stubborn and why can’t I just allow myself to enjoy life and be happy? I guess it is going to take practice. I need to start exploring, letting go, and having fun again. When I get stressed, I get quiet, moody, and I push everyone away from me. I want to stop doing this. I think it is just a knee jerk reaction and I know that there are better ways to handle stress.
I chose this pic because I felt beautiful, strong, and sexy even in my work clothes. I am hoping that this week I will feel more joyful. How was your week and what are your hopes for this new upcoming week? Please comment below to share!