Hello My Dear Darling Friends!
There is nothing more refreshing than the beginning of a new month, but first, let’s talk about the end of July. Last weekend I worked my butt off and finally got caught up with my work. On Monday I finally felt more open to exploring.
We drove downtown and pulled over to a parking lot. I was not expecting to see what I found… At first glance, it doesn’t look like much, right? In fact it would be so easy to drive past it hundreds of times without taking a moment to look closer.
I am so glad that I decided to get out of the car and take a closer look. I cannot believe what I would have missed out on. Also, I probably would not have ever posted this pic because I do not love the way my body looks, but I am trying to see beyond that these days and love myself more.
From there, we decided to explore more and look for a good place for brunch. We found ourselves at Cafe Pesto and it did not disappoint! We both chose super green salads and my bf suggested that we split a ham sandwich, but I decided that I would rather share the Kalua pork sandwich. For some reason I have never been a big fan of ham sandwiches or ham in general… Unless it is like kalua pork 🙂
I also got the ginger Kombucha made by Big Island Booch which came with its own special glass. It was so smooth and refreshing and did not have the typical aftertaste. As I bit into my sandwich I felt amused by the fact that a ham sandwich and kalua pork sandwich are virtually the same thing just a different preparation 🙂 On our walk back to the car, we stopped at a restaurant supply shop and got a giant walk and a new set of knives.
I was still very emotional and it was hard for me to turn my emotions off. I felt so sad and full of feelings and it was hard for me to snap out of it. On Tuesday night I had a very vivid/trippy dream of my Grandma Alice and her Mother (my Great Grandma) in my dream, I told Great Grandma about how Grandma Alice had passed away this year and she was gone forever. I think it has been hard for me to accept the fact that Grandma Alice is really gone. It clicked in my mind and heart in that dream and I woke up sobbing. I think it really clicked even more because July 30th was my Mom’s first birthday without Grandma. My mom was SO close to her mom and I know this is incredibly hard for her.
I woke up sobbing uncontrollably… I wish I could call Grandma and hear her cheerful voice. She was always in my corner cheering me on and I miss her so much. I took it as a sign and on Wednesday afternoon we went on an adventure to the world’s newest sandy beach.
I needed to hit the reset button before the new month started and the beach is where I usually find my peace. This was also my very 1st black sand beach. July was messy emotion-wise, but the next day I felt like a new person. I was relieved to start this new month and I took actions to make it better than July.
I took a 5 day break from coffee (well 4.5) which ended this morning. I have also been working out every day in August, blogging more consistently, and mostly cooking at home with the new wok. I am also doing a 30 day yoga challenge. I feel good about these new habits and I like the way they are affecting me.
Here are my posts from the past week. Check them out!
- Happy Birthday Mom
- I Feel Like A Mess
- Goodbye July Hello August
- Workout and Word of the Day #77
- It’s Okay
- Workout and Word of the Day #78
- Workout and Word of the Day #79
It feels good to be back on track with my Workout and Word of the Day posts!
AUGUST: UNCONDITIONAL LOVE
“Never make someone a priority when all you are to them is an option.”
- Quit nagging. Yes, I think this is the least that I have ever complained. I was able to slow down and reflect more.
- Listen. As a result of complaining less, I was more open to listening.
- Cultivate healthy relationships. These characteristics really improve my relationship.
- No dumping. I spoke up more even when it was uncomfortable.
- No Complaining. Yes!
- Give proofs of love. I showed my love and I also loved myself by taking good care of myself and doing more things that brought me joy.
I feel blessed to finally be in a much better space than I was in July. I had a couple of mental breakthroughs and I did more things that build me up rather than break me down.
I am finally starting to grasp the fact that everyday is a blessing and an opportunity to enjoy life.
How was your week and what are you looking forward to this week? Comment below to share!