There is something magical about doing something for the very 1st time. A cocktail of emotions from excitement and nervousness to overwhelming anxiety, vulnerability, and downright fear. In that moment we decide to be brave and experience something brand new.
Most people who know me know that I love to dance and more specifically I love, love, LOVE dance fitness and even more specifically than that; I LOVE ZUMBA!!! I first discovered it back in 2010 when I was afraid to go outside, super shy, and uncomfortable in my skin. My Mom dragged me to the gym with her and took me to my very 1st Zumba class. We rocked out to “Jai Ho,” and other lively songs, and I was hooked. I felt alive and a new sense of confidence in my body. A month later I became a swim coach and had to work in the evenings that I used to go to Zumba classes with my mom. It wasn’t until years later that I got to dance again. I will always look back so fondly on those fun Zumba classes with my Mom.
These days I have been experiencing many 1sts in my new home. 1st time at the market. 1st time swimming in a warm crystal clear ocean. 1st time fishing. 1st time running a business. 1st time working from home. 1st time swimming with seaturtles, 1st time walking on lava. 1st fall in 4 years that I am not going to school. etc. It has been a magical time, but also a little draining because it all heightens my anxiety. I have pretty severe social anxiety and all these 1sts get a little overwhelming, but I have been doing my best to embrace the experiences and not let my nervousness rob me of impending JOY.
Thankfully, I decided back in January to make September the month where I explore my passions and set new goals for the year since my year begins in September. This focus has encouraged me to step outside of myself and to be brave.
Here is a beautiful yoga practice for the beginner’s mind:
On Monday I messaged the local zumba instructor to find out is she was teaching her evening class (I think part of me hoped that it was cancelled for Labor Day.) She said that she was teaching class and to join them. I found a local zumba class back in July, but have talked myself out of it every single week since then. I just get the worst anxiety when it comes to new things. I almost talked myself out of it this week too, but I wanted to push myself to be brave. Also, I figured it would be less crowded since it was a holiday.
My partner encouraged me to go if I wanted to and I just about had a panic attack. I was short of breath and could barely get myself out of the door. I did not know what to wear so I decided to wear the Zumba shirt that my friend and Zumba instructor Taylor gave to me. It was time to give this shirt a purpose rather than just sleep / lounge around attire.
I was so nervous that I posted a status about how I was ridiculously afraid of going to Zumba and my dance sisters thankfully came through for me nearly instantly. They encouraged me to go and reminded me that I had nothing to be afraid of. It worked, my friends! I got out that front door and took my a$$ to Zumba class!
I had the typical “new girl” symptoms were I awkwardly entered the room and stood there waiting for class to start not knowing what to do with my body. I reminded myself to enjoy this moment. The pure unfamiliarity. Once the music started, I was able to shake off some of my nervousness and feel the joy in moving. It was a fun class and the other people were warm and welcoming. They encouraged me to stay for another 45 minutes to take the Zumba Strong class, but I was tired and felt drained from the humidity. I also did not want to over do it so after chatting with a few of the ladies I headed home.
I do have to say that my beautiful Zumba class / dance fitness community back in Lacey/Olympia, Washington is absolutely unparalleled and I miss them like crazy.
I loved how every class was a celebration!
I came out of ever class feeling stronger and more confident every single time!
As you can see, it is nearly impossible not to miss a beautiful community like this! I plan on carrying this vibrant spirit with me everywhere I go and I am happy to know that when I got home to visit I can always fun dance classes!
You can bet that I was SUPER nervous when I first started going to these classes, but my nerves quickly vanished because it was so much fun. I want to thank my dance sisters for always uplifting me and bringing out the best in me.
Here’s to many more years of spreading joy and making every time just as special as that very 1st time! I love you all ❤