My year always ends in August since it is my birthday month. I usually feel very energized in May and June and the first half of July, but by the time August begins I become introspective.
At the end of August I have 2 choices. I can repeat and review the lessons and challenges of the past year or I can decide to level up, take the best, and leave the rest.
Both of these choices have their benefits depending on the experiences of the year. There have been some years when I needed to spend more time working through challenges and learning lessons before I could let them go and take on new challenges. It seems like the other choice requires a breakdown followed by a breakthrough. Both of these experiences can be taxing on the mind, body, heart, and soul, but when we collect the pieces and put them together we create a masterpiece. Sometimes we stumble and get stuck as we pick up the pieces. It is easy to take detours and get distracted, but this is part of the process.
My first 3 years in college felt like a rinse and repeat cycle very similar to the 3 years before that. Every year was different in its own way and it added to my tapestry of experience, but I was reviewing similar lessons. Last year I started making BIG, BOLD choices and I started to see that it pays off to face your fears and sit through the discomfort of growth.
By the end of this August, I felt more wiped out than I have the past few Augusts. It threw me off because my life has been full of blessings and I could not pinpoint why I was feeling so depressed. This week I realized that it was my breakdown before breaking through. It felt good to honor those emotions and let the tears flow because it was part of letting go.
Here are a few of my favorite August 2019 memories:
Now I feel ready to take on new challenges and experiences! Let’s go!