I say that I don’t know why I am feeling sad tonight, but I do…

I say that I don’t know why I am feeling sad tonight, but I do…

I have been feeling consistently happy and the sadness and depression I was experiencing in September seems to have melted away.

The sun is still shining and I have been feeling so thankful and inspired.

But my Dad has been in and out of dialysis and has had lots of surgeries and next week he is losing one of his toes…

My dreams are coming true and I am growing better and stronger everyday.

But my sister told me about how she is still struggling with her eating disorder and it has plagued her for the past 7 years.

I make it a point to challenge myself mentally and physically and am also taking time to slow down and clear my mind.

But I found out that my violin teacher passed away last July and I didn’t even know about it until tonight.

Is it selfish of me to be so joyful and happy with my life when the people that I love are in pain?

4 thoughts on “I say that I don’t know why I am feeling sad tonight, but I do…

  1. Oh bless you my love…♥️ Even though you feel so joyful and happy…doesn’t mean you stop thinking about the ones you love and care about…with all that you have been through yourself…you try and put on a brave face for those you really do care about… even though you may feel guilty..you shouldn’t..love peace and prayers to you, your sister, because I’ve had an eating disorder it can be devastating to see someone go through that pain and prayers to your father…thanks for sharing, take care….✌🏼

    1. Hello Kim, thank you for your kind words, prayers, and love. I hope that you have been able to heal through your eating disorder. I say through because it is so personal and my sister said that it feels so engrained. I also had an eating disorder in High school and disordered eating has still been a bit of a coping mechanism for me, but I really do believe that healing can happen.
      Thank you for stopping by and reading. Love, peace, and blessings to you too.

      ❤ Alana

  2. Hello…alana… I’ve healed from my eating disorder but it can stay with you for a long time, I’ve done blogging about eating disorders…and how I coped as I’ve just recovered again myself..I agree with your sister it does feel so engrained…healing can most definitely happen…I have every faith in that and I do believe that we can find happiness…sending love and prayers ♥️♥️…take care..

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