Thank you November Hello December

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Most of November was purely refreshing and full of surprises.  Of course, I had my moments of feeling sad and down (especially these past few days), but they were more rare than usual.  Just now, I reached for my tea mug expecting to make a cup of peppermint tea, but I decided to switch it up with sweet cinnamon spice and some raw honey.

I had lovely visits with my friends and my sister:

On November 1st my friend Tsuneko surprised me with a visit.  The last time we saw each other was probably in 2011 and it was such a joy to visit and catch up.  The next 2 weekends our neighbors came over on Sunday night to hang out and we had a lot of fun talking about our island adventures.  Shortly after that we were adopted by a stray kitten and I am glad that the neighbors have decided to adopt him because 5 cats would simply be too many for us.

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I almost bought another acre of land, but I am glad that I decided not to.  I would rather put time and resources into developing and improving the property that we have.  Instead, we invited my sister to visit me in Hawaii and she joined us for a weekend.  I tried to get her to stay longer, but she did not want to change her plans.  I am so glad that we had the time that we did to go on adventures.  Of course, I was a little disappointed that I could not persuade her to stay longer, but I was able to find peace in the fact that she followed her heart.

November was a very healthy month for me and I think that has directly translated into me feeling happier, more inspired, and less depressed.  I got through 4 whole weeks of my 8 week workout program and I am looking forward to the 2nd half.  Although, on Friday I had to cut the workout short after 42 minutes because I was feeling out of it.  The entire workout was 82 minutes long and I just did not have the energy to see it through.  My partner and I have been consistently intermittent fasting, but I think I need to start eating a little earlier so that I have more energy for my workouts.

My favorite past time has been reading and I managed to read 6 books this month which might actually be a lifetime goal for me.  I honestly have not read any solid fiction probably since high school.  I have read some recently, but only because it was assigned for a college class and I did not get the same level of enjoyment out of it.  I might have to start writing more  book reviews if I keep reading like this.

I turned in my final report to my professor and had my final evaluation before long my degree will be complete.  I think that I have honestly intentionally dragged it on longer than necessary because I am going to miss being an undergrad.  Is that crazy?  Not having a degree was an insecurity of mine for so long, but I did not give up on my dream.  Now I am so close to attaining the goal and I am sad about the ending.  I guess that an ending makes room for a new beginning.

These past few days have been foggy and I think it is because I have been out of a routine.  The rest is probably really good for me since I have been working so hard mentally, professionally, and physically.  The problem is that my mind plays tricks on me and makes me feel guilty for being “lazy” when the rest is actually good.  I think these blue feelings are also directly related to what I said above about my undergrad almost being complete.

Now I have to ask myself: “What happens now?”

This is an exciting time, but also terrifying.  I do not think that I am doing badly for myself especially right out of undergrad.  I am running 2 businesses and working full-time from home.  We also own 3 houses.  There is a lot more I want to do, but I am overwhelmed by it all.  I guess I better write that list I have been talking about and start checking items off from the top to the bottom.

This is the best time for me to review my monthly goals.

DECEMBER: CLEANLINESS

“Clean out a corner of your mind and creativity will instantly fill it.”

-Dee Hock

  • Plan ahead and prepare.
  • Set Goals.
  • Dream BIG.
  • Sleep at night.
  • Get an early start.
  • Let go of everything that doesn’t bring you Joy.
  • Photography.

These goals are perfectly fitting especially for where I am in my life right now.  I think that one of the reasons why I enjoyed school so much is because I am comfortable with people telling me what to do.  I did what my parents wanted me to do the entire time I was growing up and I thrived with structure.  Now it is my chance to figure out what I REALLY WANT TO DO as myself.  I am thankful that I am in such a healthy relationship.  My partner encourages me to pursue my interests and he reminds me that it is okay for me to make mistakes.  He also has to remind me to let him make mistakes too.  As a recovering perfectionist, sometimes I forget that making mistakes is not a bad thing.

It is overwhelming, but I will start with a hot shower, then read my books, and then I will head to bed a lot earlier than I have been so that I can wake up in the morning.

What are your goals for the month of December?  Please comment below to share!

❤ Alana

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