Hello My Dear Darling Friends!
I am so glad that I decided to start working out consistently again. It is the best thing I could have done for my body, mind, and spirit. I kept putting it off, procrastinating, and putting everything else first, but the guilt kept piling up inside. I could feel myself dreading my next workout. I am thankful that my friend Grace sent me Sydney’s youtube channel. It helped to get me back on track. I often get so overwhelmed and don’t know where to start even though I have been through this many times before. To be fair, the options are endless especially with this quarantine. I really appreciated the fact that so many people decided to step it up and offer free workouts of all kinds. I could have taken free Zumba classes to my heart’s content and tried a wide variety of other classes too. I did attend one zumba class, but that was it. I discovered that I kind of have weird anxiety during video calls and I was uncomfortable being on Zoom.
Opportunity is there it just depends on whether or not we are ready to seize it and go for it. These last 3 months I just was not feeling it. I was stressed and overwhelmed by the state of the world. Thankfully, I am feeling more energetic these days.
Workout of the Day: Hiit Cardio + deep stretch
This was such a fun hiit cardio workout full of lots of variety. I really appreciated the deep stretch at the end of the workout. I know that I haven’t been stretching enough lately. I really love how Sydney includes a complete warm-up and cool down with each workout.
Word of the Day:
- A sudden alarming amazement or dread that results in utter confusion; dismay.
Today I felt almost unreasonably sensitive. I just about burst into tears after my workout. I just felt sad and I could not figure out why. I think it has been saddening for me to read all the articles about racism and the riots. It feels like the world is going through a major reckoning. These are issues that have been present for ages and now they are being more exposed for what they are. I can see both sides of the arguments. What happened to George Floyd and countless others was awful and unacceptable. Things really do need to change and I hope that the world will learn how to live peacefully.
I definitely want to contribute towards these positive changes, but I have been feeling lots of pressure and strong judgments on social media that I do not think are right. After seeing countless articles about violent riots and protests in many cities I tried posting a news article about how Hilo Hawaii had a very peaceful protest. They included words from local islanders who talked about why they thought Black Lives Matter and why they were there. When I tried posting it on facebook for the first time ever Fb said that it could not post the article and an error occurred. It honestly felt like illegal censorship.
I do believe that Black Lives Matter and I also believe that All Lives Matter. A few days ago, on instagram I created a story post instead of doing the black square that said “All Lives Matter Spread Kindness.” Nobody called me on it and I didn’t realize that many people are offended by folks saying “all lives matter.” I guess some people use it to imply that the black lives matter movement thinks it is better or maybe the all lives matter people are minimizing black lives. I don’t know, but it is kind of complicated and I didn’t realize all of that when I posted. I felt kind of bad a few days later then I realized that the judgments and the entitlement to make people feel guilty is not right. A lot of people say that it is bad if you are not posting, sharing resources, and donating to actively make a change.
I believe that we should all do what we can with the resources we have. I feel for some of my African American friends who felt the need to explain themselves because people were shaming them for not actively posting about the recent events. Just because some people are not actively posting on social media does not mean that they are passive and do not care. Many people actively fight these battles on a daily basis without broadcasting it on social media. When we know better we should do better. We are all processing these events the best way that we can. Please be kind and gentle to others through this time.
Thank you for listening to my rant (rather reading it.) I hope that we can become more unified and peaceful. This evening I decided to take a break from Facebook. It has just been an overload and has been making me feel stressed out even though no unkindness has been directly aimed towards me. My phone has honestly become a little bit of a security blanket insulating me from reality at times and I would like to spend less time glued to it. Hopefully, I will take this time to heighten my senses and practice being more present.
Have a wonderful weekend my dear darling friends!