Hello My Dear Darling Friends!
I am so happy to be back only one week later! This is the 1st time in a long time that I have written one of these weekly posts with only 1 week in between posts. Does that even make sense? Haha! I guess what I was trying to say is that lately, I have been letting 2-3 weeks go by without posting and it feels good to get back on track!
I am enjoying this month of October, but I did cry a lot this week. I think my tears were caused by a nice combo of hormones, stress, changes, and the news that my Godfather is in critical condition right now. Over a week ago he suffered from a heart attack that was followed by a stroke. Please keep him in your prayers. ❤
We reconnected last December and have been talking off and on since then. I am so thankful that we had that time together. Uncle Harry has always been my favorite Uncle even though I didn’t get to see him very often. Distance kept us apart since he lives in Guam. Since I was a little girl, for as long as I can remember, I always wanted to visit the island of Guam. I got to visit with my parents, but I was basically a baby back then. I still remember spending time with my Grandma Bea, chasing chickens, looking at the ocean from Grandma’s backyard, getting lost in the chapel, and holding those little crabs.
I loved talking with Grandma around the holidays and she would always say, “come visit me in Guam! Come swim in my swimming pool (which was the Marianas Trench in her backyard).” Sadly, Grandma Bea passed in 2008.
My Dad’s 65th birthday was this week on October 8th and it was nice to talk to him and my mom on the phone. I told them about how I was thinking of visiting Guam someday and they said that if I ever get the chance to go to Guam, I should definitely do it. I have added “Visit Guam” to my list of medium-term-goals. Here are some pictures of my sister and I with our Dad. We were at her Christmas piano recital and she gave a wonderful performance!
I got a lot of nice mail this week and was pleasantly surprised by a birthday gift / letter from my friend Christina and a sweet care package from my parents.
The best surprises are definitely the ones that we don’t expect! Haha I know that is kind of redundant, but it’s my blog I can say what I want to say 😉 My mom sent me a care package with more hand-sewn matching mask and scrunchie sets and an apron for carrying my quail eggs. I call it my egg-pron! For about a decade, I was convinced that scrunchies were a thing of the past, but about 2 months ago, I noticed that they were back in style and I decided to give them another shot. I am back on “team scrunchie!” I enjoy the fun colors and the fact that they don’t pull my hair as tautly as a hairband sometimes does. I actually had some scrunchie/mask combos in my etsy cart, but hadn’t found a set that I was fond enough to buy. It’s like my mom knew exactly what I needed! Mom’s are so good at that 🙂
I am very proud of my morning routine throughout the week! I just completed Day #10/100 days of coding! This week I just coded for 1 hour every morning and I felt so accomplished! All that discrete math that I could not quite make sense of when I was taking the class is starting to come into play. I love understanding these programming concepts better than ever. I am learning how to program in PHP!
After my hour of code, I would do my workout. I completed week #3/8 and am looking forward to starting a brand new week. I felt strong throughout this week’s workout regiment, but I do have to say that I felt stumped when it came to cardio and nutrition. I got off my groove with the clean eating and this week I would like to get back on track. My weight hardly went up this week, but I want it to continue going down until I reach a healthy weight. My workouts took between 1-1.5 hours and by the end of that I didn’t have any energy left to do cardio. My step count has also gone down and I decided to adjust my daily step goal to 7,100 steps. It was 10,000 steps, but lately I have been feeling a little energetically drained.
OCTOBER: PAY ATTENTION
“Somewhere within you is a huge supply of happiness, always there, patiently waiting for you to reach out and grab it. It’s yours for the asking. And you ask by giving it your attention.”
- Meditate. I haven’t been meditating, but I did start a yoga practice this week and that has helped me to slow down.
- Examine true rules. Finding out about my family members suffering from healthy issues has urged me to examine my own true rules. What is important to me and how can I live my best life?
- Stimulate the mind in new ways. I am actually coding for real now and understanding what I am doing… AND when I don’t get it, I don’t give up!
- Keep a food diary. I need to do a better job with this.
- Hone in focus. YES! It takes focus to code, my friends.
It was hard to get myself to relax and go outdoors, but I was also so exhausted that I could barely get going. Strange paradox, right? I think I was a little under the weather and needed to rest. Also, sadness greatly affects my health. When I am worried about my family members and people I care about I feel so sad that it makes me sick. While empathy is a good quality that I do not want to lose; I also want to make sure that I am not jeopardizing my health.
Thankfully, my partner has patiently been there for me every step of the way. He holds me while I cry, listens, and takes us out on grand adventures even when the last thing I want to do is go anywhere.
Going outside is medicine for the soul and being by the ocean is even more healing. I am so thankful that we are here together and I want to spend more time focusing on my blessings rather than all of those little things that make me feel sad.
This week was full of more self-reflection and it pretty much broke my heart. I thought about where I was the last time I saw my Uncle Harry and for a minute, I felt disappointed in myself. My dreams were so performance-based back then. I was a singer, artist, and a violinist who played in the symphony. Isn’t it crazy how hearing a song can set you off? I was watching the Schitt’s Creek episode where Stevie sings “Maybe This Time” in the Cabaret musical and it brought me back to my freshman year in High school when I was obsessed with musicals. Back then, I had plans to apply for Julliard as a violinist or become an opera singer. Can you believe that there was a time when I used to practice Violin, singing, and piano for hours everyday?
All of those memories rushed through me like a waterfall of tears and I became inconsolable… Poor Christopher, but he was there for me and he reminded me of all of the beautiful things that I have accomplished. And I felt better and thankful after we talked about it. It is still hard for me to open up because I worry about being criticized and judged. These are all fears that are in my head and I am trying to let them go…
October 8th was also our 6 year anniversary! I can honestly say that these 6 years have been the very BEST years of my life! This is why I must practice focusing on the good rather than the bad because there is a lot more good than there is bad and what we focus on becomes real.
Our quail farm is thriving and my chicks are now 8 weeks old! This past week we also celebrated the 1 year anniversary of our cats, Alleyjandra and Carl flying to Hawaii from the Mainland. See? I have so much to be thankful for!
Also, my Milky Way Tree blossomed for the very 1st time and she smells absolutely heavenly!
I finally spent some time doing yard work. Lately, I have been spending less time in the garden because it has been so hot and no place is more inviting than an air-conditioned house. On Friday, I finally did over an hour of yardwork and then I treated myself to yoga on the trampoline followed by sunbathing and journaling. It was heavenly!
That night, we had the most gorgeous sunset!
Overall, this was a good week, but I hope that next week will be even better! How was your week? Please comment below to share!