I am 30 pounds lighter than I was on my birthday (end of August.) And I am still struggling to love myself.
There are times when I can celebrate my progress and feel proud of the results that I have gotten from working my butt off (consistently.) I often feel lighter, brighter, and inspired to continue my fitness and health journey.
But sometimes I push too hard. I get pushy and cruel too fast and punish myself for finishing last or even skipping when I am tired and worn out. When I let the stress get the best of me the consequence is usually an injury and that forces me to slow the F down…
This week was hard because I took some video clips of my hula hoop workouts / dances and posted them on my stories even though I still don’t love the way that I look. Dancing and video doesn’t always give us the chance to show our best angles.
And the truth is that I have no idea what I am doing!
I love dancing, hula hooping, and moving my body because it brings me joy and helps me to work up a sweat.
Why on earth do I share my videos if they make me feel bad about myself?…
Because I want to be real.
Does this push me out of my comfort zone? HELL YEAH! Because there I am flaws and imperfections for all to see wiggling, spinning, and having the time of my life.
I stopped sharing some of my videos until some of my friends said that they love seeing them.
I am trying to hide less and am practicing acceptance. I am also trying to accept where I am right here and now and appreciate how far I have come.
I just wanted to tell you that you are beautiful just the way you are. There is enough heaviness in the world let’s let the shit that is weighing us down go to be lighter.