Jesus – From Fear to Fun!

On Sunday I was chatting with my mom, and she shared how she was shaking after singing for church.  I asked why and she said it was because it was just her singing by herself.  I told her I didn’t think I could do that!  I recently have joined the worship team for my church and singing into a microphone is a new experience for me.  I have never liked being on the mic.  In the past, when I’ve had to do public speaking for groups, I’ve hated how it made me feel, and I hated how I sounded.  But the first time I sang at our church’s prayer night I was surprised when I actually felt good!  I had felt anxious the entire day wondering what it would be like, but then when it came time to go, I was surprised that I had fun!  I definitely wasn’t perfect – following the worship leader was not always easy, and I was still nervous, but once I let go and really started worshiping, that all faded.  I’ve gotten to sing at a few more prayer nights since then, each one a little different then the last, and always enjoyable.  I was excited to do it this week too – except I was a little worried it might just be me…  I tried not to let it get to my head – that had never been the case before – but my fears became a reality when Tuesday night came and my friend confirmed it was just me and the pianist.  He also sang too – but that didn’t make me feel any less nervous.  I asked my husband to pray for me to help calm my nerves and decided this was the night that my fears of singing by myself would be conquered!  After practicing with the pianist, he asked me if I wanted to lead any songs.  I told him I could lead any of them that he didn’t want to, leaving me with 3 of 5!  Wow!  I felt excited!  I prayed and asked Jesus to be with me, to help me to do this.  I just wanted to sing, not be afraid! 

The first song began and I felt out of my element.  Without the lead singer I didn’t know when to start!  I waited as the intro played a little longer and then began.  I felt so nervous!!  I began singing the first verse, then went to the chorus – but that wasn’t right, I needed to repeat the first verse!!  I didn’t know what to do – I looked at the pianist and asked him, but he didn’t answer.  I felt lost.  Then I heard my dear friend and pastor continuing to sing the chorus.  His steady voice gave me encouragement and I kept going.  I’ve always been a stickler for the rules, but that night, I definitely didn’t follow them!  Being new to singing worship songs, and just singing in general, I didn’t do the best job at reading the lyric instructions in front of me!  Or cuing in to the piano chords.  But I did have fun!  And I felt good!  I am so grateful that God gave me the opportunity to sing by myself, and I saw that not only could I do it, but I could do it well!  I definitely need practice, and have a lot to work on, but Jesus has helped me so much!  I used to be so shaky just being on a stage.  And now I can stand up there and sing songs I love BY MYSELF into a microphone in front of people!  Now THAT’S a miracle! 🙌😍👏💃🎉😂